So when I started this blog, I was going to pass the weblink along to everyone I know. But then I got three posts in and realised that I don’t want my friends and family reading my bullshit. Because I am a weird dude, and I do my best to hide it most of the time. Not hide it exactly, but… I definitely downplay it. There are many things about myself that I don’t wish to reveal to friends and family, but I don’t mind sharing with complete strangers. Well… it’s all over.
My uncle John found my blog! I said, “Oh no! Now you have access to my insanity!” His reply was, “I’ve always had access to that.” I am scared, man. What am I going to do? Am I supposed to censor myself? Like… everytime I’m ready to write something terribly personal, or something very mean, or something a bit psychotic… what do I do?
So. I’m just going to say fuck it. I figure I’ve already freaked out most of everyone in my life, at one time or another, so it should be no surprise that I’m writing an internet blog that reflects my real-life personality. I assume I’ll eventually regret it, but I just posted the link to my blog on my facebook profile. Now anybody can look. Because if I’m going to dive into a pool of angry loved-ones and acquaintances, I’m diving into the deep end.
I’m nervous, and I assume this will end in tragedy that I will have to write about later on. But. Whatever. I’m a loner, Dottie… a rebel.
Does this shit happen to everyone who writes on the internet? How do folks deal with this?